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how do I?

onaforeignshore — Thu, 01 Dec 2011 09:34:17 +0000

How do I tell you how I feel
When all the words in the world seem to fail
When everything you do is so real
That the world in comparison is pale

How do I show you how I feel
When everything I do never seems sufficient
When everything that is real
Feels like a fantasy, so inefficient

How do I show you how you make me feel
When you touch me, hold me, kiss me
When everything that’s supposed to be real
You have taken away from me…

alone

onaforeignshore — Thu, 01 Dec 2011 09:24:58 +0000

alone in the dark I sit
and think of the days we shared together
the emptiness inside me grows
as I wonder what went wrong

I loved you unconditionally
I wanted to share myself with you forever
but you threw my love back at me
and left me wondering

was it something I said or did
did I somehow not fulfil your needs
or was I just another conquest
someone to be used and then discarded

the void in my soul cannot be filled
my days seem cold and dreary
for you destroyed my joy so completely
that I cannot see a way out

and with each passing day
my soul will heal
but the scar will always stay
with the memory of how I feel…

Dear Lord

onaforeignshore — Sat, 26 Nov 2011 18:51:36 +0000

I don’t know where to start,
but see, I have a broken heart.
And as your child I humbly pray
that you will help me make this pain go away.

All I need you provide so free
a special miracle just for me.
But there is one request I’d like to make
if it is Your will for my own sake.

Please, Lord, can you send
someone special, my heart to mend.
Someone who’s kind and caring,
who really won’t mind sharing.

Someone to bring love, when I feel bad.
To bring me joy, when I feel sad.
Someone strong to bring me peace,
when my doubts and fears just will not cease.

Someone patient, good and gentle,
who will never be judgmental.
Someone faithful, humble and kind
who’s never afraid to speak their mind.

I know, dear Lord, that it’s a lot to ask,
it seems such an impossible task.
But if it’s your will, I pray today
May this person come my way?

Amen

you

onaforeignshore — Sun, 07 Feb 2010 18:57:50 +0000

the sun rises and the colours seem brighter
a new day begins and my heart feels lighter
for i have found someone when i wasn’t looking…

the day passes by and i can’t wait
for the time to come
when we can be together…

without all the turmoil that’s currently in my life
all the things that have to be sorted out
but at the end of it all i know…

that you will be there
that our life together will begin at last
because when i’m with you…

i don’t worry about the future
i can forget about the past
everything is new…

when we start our journey together
may it last forever
for in my heart there is only…

You

me

onaforeignshore — Sat, 16 Jan 2010 23:15:31 +0000

I’ve searched for love
and found none

I’ve hoped for someone
and no-one came

and loneliness became
too much to bare

so now

I’m not searching anymore
and if he finds me, so be it

I’m not hoping anymore
and if he comes along, so be it

and I’m not lonely anymore
because I’ve found me

I don’t need anyone to be complete

hope

onaforeignshore — Sat, 16 Jan 2010 23:00:19 +0000

too much of my life i’ve waited
for someone to come along
for something to happen

being patient and waiting
for you to come along
to touch my heart

and yet

i live in hope
that some day
some how
somewhere

you’ll find me

me

onaforeignshore — Tue, 22 Sep 2009 19:53:08 +0000

i trust You more than i trust myself
and yet i hurt You…
i love You more than i’ve ever loved anyone in my life
and still i hurt You…

Why would You ever want to be with me?
When there’s so much i do wrong?
When i’m confused and helpless
and feel like i don’t belong…

And yet
in my heart
there’s a seed of hope
that maybe
some day
You might
choose me…

Just for you

onaforeignshore — Mon, 31 Aug 2009 15:04:00 +0000

I know that it is difficult
and that there is a lot on your mind
I know that you need your space
yourself you need to find

I know it got too intense
that things happened way too fast
I know that your confused
and scared and need time

and though it may hurt me
I still only want what’s best for you

I wish you the sun,
your pains to drive away.
I wish you the rainbow,
so that it’s colours may brighten your day

I wish you the moon,
to light your way at night.
I wish you the stars,
so your heavens may be bright.

But most of all
I wish that one day
You may find a guy
that will make you whole again…

love at first sight…

onaforeignshore — Mon, 31 Aug 2009 14:54:07 +0000

I’ve always heard about it -
that elusive love at first sight
and thought that must be silly
cause that can never be, right?

and then, one day
I managed to find it
the feelings so intense
I felt like I was blinded

but yet again
it wasn’t meant to be
and once again
there’s just…

For my cousin and her wife…

onaforeignshore — Tue, 24 Feb 2009 03:06:27 +0000

the day dawns bright
changing darkness into light
and I think back to the day
when you finally came my way

the day that you
asked me to be with you
was the day that my life
began with you as my wife

i vowed to love and cherish
to honour and obey
but those things seem simple
the smallest price to pay

your smile brightens my day
your touch brings me to life
your voice sings to my soul
your love carries me on wings

i know our love grows stronger
with every passing day
and every day i bless that day
when you finally came my way